I’m Taking Back My Heart

Goodbye, I think that was the last word that I also sent many months ago. I am doing my best not to be another David Mitchell and many million others as I know we will never see each other again.

I will eventually get there but unlike what David did, which was walking and working, I am just crossing stuff off of my 100 goals list. It is like a crossword and I must admit, it is pretty fun.

This is the end of the road, this is where we part

You can keep all your memories but I’m taking my heart

I was lured into every word you speak. Yeah when I was young you could tie my tongue and weaken my knees but the lines been drawn and I’m moving on, and another boy will come along so I’m taking back my heart for me.

– Taking Back My Heart – Rusty Clanton (original)
Oh man, I feel old this was part of my early twenties. Haha!


A friend of mine introduced me to the band called Elbow and I fell in love with their song titled, “Starlings”. I swore off listening to love songs because it makes me wistful but I heard that song enthusiastically recommended by a friend and now, I can’t stop listening to it. I love songs like Starlings because one, it’s a song that’s layered musically (the strings plus the brass, ugh) and two, it’s a song that invokes imagery. Listening to it makes me giggle like a schoolgirl because it reminds me of an awkward meeting between two people who eventually fall in love and AAGHHHHHHHH, it reminds me of my roommate’s grandparents’ love story or my parents’ love story.

It makes me hopeful that maybe, just maybe, I’ll be with someone who’s wonderful and loves and cherishes me as much as I love and cherish them. Someone I can talk to about anything and someone to do the day to day and adventures, big or small, with. You know, that cheesy, normal stuff.

On this dreary winter evening, I sit on my temporary bed, curating my wedding playlist because why not?

So my wedding playlist so far (that I can remember):

  • Frankie Valli – Can’t Take My Eyes Off Of You
  • Everly Brothers – Devoted to You
  • Everly Brothers – Let It Be Me
  • Elbow – Starlings
  • Arctic Monkeys – Baby, I’m Yours
  • Rex Orange County – Pluto Projector
  • Atlantic Starr – Always
  • Birdtalker – My Lover

I think two of those songs were introduced by my ex but I love those songs regardless. Four of those on the list have been there for as long as I can remember and then Elbow and Birdtalker are recent additions.

Maybe it’s Christmas, maybe it’s the talk of Witcher S2 but I’m feeling a little nostalgic but I can’t wait to see how mine would unfold.