I just wanted to say thank you for letting me talk on here. It has been therapeutic and well, I feel a whole lot better now.
You know, once you start listing out the people who love and support you and the things you have, it makes life a little bit better. I have stepped out of the shroud of sadness that was hovering over me wherever I went. It is still there, don’t get me wrong but it’s starting to take a backseat if you get what I mean.
Trying to get myself to focus on the goals that I set out to accomplish or at least some of them. To list it out, here they are.
- A1 German Certificate
- Project Management Certificate
- Volunteer more
- Healthy eating and to lose 20lbs – get my binge-eating under control.
- Do an invert on the hoop and complete my first ever hoop choreography.
I’m keeping it short because the five items are big commitments in themselves. For example, German classes take up about half of my Sunday and then I study during the weekdays. Can you imagine once I start applying for Masters in two to three years’ time? It is a good way to practice and implement time management.
I am getting more convinced that this is where I am supposed to be in life – working and Ich durchstreiche meine liste. Just kidding but seriously, to be at that point, where I get my priorities sorted, and get things out of the way before moving on to the next part of my life.
Lastly, if I were to trust that, you know, God has a greater plan for me. It is only for my benefit that He sloughed off the people who were just not it. I wish them a great life and as my flatmate said, ‘We are better off acquaintances from afar’ and if I may add, ‘or strangers who have no connection to and with each other.’ Moreover, I have been reflecting on my relationships with them and sometimes I have this feeling that I was either trying to be someone who I am not or trying too hard.
I think some things are better left not thought about until maybe way, way into the future.
It was a painful process but that’s life – I will wait on the Lord and see what blessings will He surprise and bless me with next. I just do hope that the next one is proactive.